I’m not religious. But I do ask for signs that something created life and the universe for a reason when I need too.
They may not come right away, and some signs are more subtle than others. But they sustain me in times when my old enemy fear shows up, and causes unhappiness in my life.
Some say there isn’t a god of any kind. Maybe god is the wrong word to use. If all the signs I’ve received in my sobriety so far tell me anything, it’s to keep trying to believe in more than just this world. Doing so has helped me to love myself, which is a miracle considering how I felt about myself when I was drinking.
Despite the occasional fears I have. I’m no longer a frightened little boy inside. I believe in myself and I know things will be all right, even when they’re not. Because I know I can be all right even when I’m not. It may take what some people call prayer on some days. But I know I can eventually stop feeling worried and afraid and return to my former state of happiness.
Actually, my happiness never fully goes away, because I’m happy with who I am.
Being happy with who I am also sustains me in times when my old enemy fear shows up. And perhaps that is an even bigger miracle, considering who I was when I was drinking.
Some say there isn’t a god of any kind. Maybe god is the wrong word to use.
If all the signs I’ve received in my sobriety so far have proven anything, it’s that I have the ability to create my happiness.
I just need a little help now and then.