Finding Strength Within And Without

There were times early in my sobriety when it felt like I was barely holding onto my sanity and I wasn’t sure what to do. I was never very good at facing emotional pain or figuring out why I had it. But thankfully I did hold on.

I needed help from others with these struggles. And it was hard for me to believe in more than just this world on some days. But the result was worth the effort.

I learned that part of becoming a stronger person is to never be afraid to ask for help. And I eventually saw that it was better to try to believe in something than it was to believe in nothing. I also found an inner strength that I didn’t know I had, and peace of mind that I didn’t think possible.

Today I know everything’s going to be all right, even when it’s not. Because I know that I can be all right even when I’m not.

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Hope And Faith

“Its been said that faith can move mountains. However, for some us non-religious types, having faith during troubling times is often hard. We need to have something to help us though, and this is where hope comes in. No matter how unfortunate my circumstances have been in the past, having and maintaining hope was always the foundation for better days to come. I’m not saying faith can’t move mountains; I try to believe that something created life and the universe for a reason. I’ve just found hope to be a very important part of process.”

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Where There’s A Will There’s A Way

“I’ve read that our will is God’s will and we have the power to create our own reality. Perhaps that explains why both what we call good and what we call evil can take place. In the end it’s up to us to decide what we want to believe, and what we want to create. I try to believe that something created life and the universe for a reason, and do good, but I have my days when I wonder what the hell life is really about. I still continue trying to do good and see good in others, though. It’s how I create happiness, even when there’s not much to be happy about.”

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Give Me Something To Believe In

It’s very hard to convince others to see things our way if they don’t want to. There’s hot and cold, up and down, and everything in between when it comes to life’s experiences and what people believe in. But it is this polarity and all the things in between that makes me see a design to life.

Believe what you want, but it seems like something is going on here, and I can’t help but to have hope it will all be explained to me after I die. If I’m wrong, well then it’s not going to matter.

However, I rather go through life with hope and some level of belief that something created life and the universe for a reason, than thinking life has no meaning at all. When I do this, the world doesn’t seem so harsh, and it’s easier for me to love and understand others whether they believe in something or not.

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Fears began in my childhood, grew in my teenage years, and stayed with me throughout my adult life. Thankfully, through the twelve and a half years I’ve been sober I have become better at understanding my fears and coping with them until I am able to overcome them.  As far as any new fears I experience, I know they are really just old ones that have resurfaced. However, because I’m aware they’re old fears it’s easier for me to quickly move past them.

Really when I think about it, the only new fears I seem to experience anymore come from doubts I sometimes have. My biggest doubt created fear today is whether I will become successful in my endeavor to go out and help others at the level I want to.

Fortunately, as I said, I’ve learned how to cope with my fears, but there are days when I need help in overcoming them. On those days, I pray to whatever created life and the Universe to give me guidance and reassurance, and I thank it for everything in my life. Then despite my fears, I tell myself everything will be all right and go about my day waiting for the guidance and reassurance I need.  I do this by looking for what some people call a sign. I began calling these signs “non coincidences” several years ago, and not only do they help me believe that I’m on the right track in life, but they also give me hope that there’s a God of some kind.

Sometimes this happens through a song I haven’t heard in a long while that holds some special meaning to me. Or a magazine article that I feel I was meant to read. And other times it happens through an informative TV show of some type. However, more often than not, these “non coincidences” come about through a chance meeting with someone who in conversation says something that gives me the guidance and reassurance I asked for.

Prayer, people, hope and self-talk have kept me sober and greatly contributed to the happiness I cherish so much today. Without these tools, I don’t know what I would have done when the doubts and fears I felt throughout my sobriety, especially early on, almost overcame me.

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