My Ego Is Just Fine Thank You

I enjoy helping others. It makes me feel good about myself, and gives me a sense of achievement.

The definitions listed below are why I think most people’s troubles come from insecurity, and not ego like many spiritual gurus state. The third definition of ego comes from insecurity. It is a false sense of ego used to overlook our fears and insecurities, and help us feel better about ourselves. I should know. I had a false ego all through my life—even into my early sobriety. It was in my sobriety, however, that I was able to become more self-confident and grow to love myself. I also found greater happiness in life. Especially after finally becoming happy with who I was.

It is those things that I want for others. It’s why I do what I do to help people. Not because of ego. And not because of insecurity. But because of who I’ve become.

ego: 1. A person’s sense of self-esteem or self-importance. 2. The part of the mind that mediates between the conscious and the unconscious and is responsible for reality testing and a sense of personal identity. 3. An overly high opinion of oneself

insecurity: 1. Uncertainty or anxiety about oneself; lack of confidence.

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I See What You’re Saying

“When we see arrogance in someone it’s usually a result of their insecurities, and not their confidence. But it really shouldn’t matter. What’s important is that we’re able to spot arrogance in ourselves, temper it, and make sure it’s not a result of our own insecurities.”

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I Wouldn’t Doubt It

“Sometimes when a person lashes out at us; it’s important to remember something we can sometimes forget. People are jealous. This can be especially true when we’re happy in our lives. Insecurity is a root problem for many people, and so is fear. Both fear and insecurity are caused by doubts. Doubts about life. And what’s usually the case with someone who lashes out at others. Doubts about themselves.”

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Does Your Ego Have It Right?

“I’ve heard it said that a lot of the emotional pain we experience in life is caused by having too much ego, but this isn’t always true.  Our egos are necessary to help us love ourselves and feel good about who we are.  Not loving ourselves and not feeling good about who we are can also cause us emotional pain.  But this is due to fear and insecurity, and not having enough ego.”

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It All Equals Out In The End

Because of my fears and insecurities, I can remember feeling less than for a good part of my life, and it was one of the reasons why I liked to drink so much. When I was drunk I could be whoever I wanted to be, and act however I wanted to act, without feeling the way I did when sober. This was only a temporary fix though, and it would take several years of sobriety and a lot of growth before I became more secure and confident in myself.

Becoming more secure and confident helped me to stop feeling less than, and as I continued to grow, I would eventually love myself enough to be happy with who I was. However, it would be the realization that we’re actually not all equal, and that in fact some people are better than us that would help me see how much I had grown. I should probably explain this with a story.

When I was younger I never liked losing at anything, and actually got mad when I did. Getting angry when I lost at something continued into my adulthood, and I hated even losing a simple card game. Much of this stemmed from the fact that I had to be better than someone else to feel good about myself, and although drinking helped me feel that way, the reality was that it also prevented me from growing up emotionally. I basically remained the same fearful and insecure person I was when I started drinking at sixteen. Like many people who begin drinking and taking drugs at a young age and continue throughout their adulthood, it stunted my emotional growth. Even with all the life experiences I had over the years, by the time I finally stopped drinking at the age of thirty-six, I hadn’t matured a lot emotionally. This lack of emotional maturity was also responsible for other negative emotions I felt; worry, sadness, and even self-pity were a common part of my life. Make no mistake about it though, my fears and insecurities were at the heart of these emotions, and as I said, the reason for feeling less than.

However, as I kept growing, so did the love I felt for myself  and others, and I eventually no longer needed to be better than someone else. It was at this point in my sobriety that I knew I had reached a level of growth that I never experienced before, which was quite gratifying for me considering my past, and it made me feel even better about myself.

When we look at the facts with confidence in ourselves and a love for who we are, it no longer bothers us that some people are smarter than us, more skillful at their jobs, or more talented at things like singing, acting, and playing sports. There are also those who are funnier than us, and even though I pride myself on being a funny guy, I know people who are funnier than me, and I love it.

Besides the things I just mentioned, certain factors can play a huge role in how equal we really are to someone else. Statistics show that who our parents are and where we’re born have a lot to do with how successful we become, and despite the rich problem child we occasionally hear about, being born into a wealthy family with social status certainly gives many people an advantage in life. The trick is to not let others make us feel like we’re less than simply because they have more money or some perceived social status, or even if they have a higher education and a title of some kind. This takes a lot of growth on our part, and we may need help overcoming any fears and insecurities we have, but I know it can be done.

Perhaps death, which I call the great equalizer, is the only thing that makes us truly equal in the end. Although it should be noted that even in death some people get more attention and have bigger funerals than others. But maybe it is in what we call death that we are recreated, perhaps as spirits or souls, and find that there really is something that created life and the universe for a reason, and that this creator loves us all equally.

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