Despite what the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous says about not having regrets in our sobriety—”we won’t regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.” I still feel quite sad sometimes when I think of how my drinking often came before spending time with my family.
Although we did do things together and certainly loved one another, I simply wasn’t always there for my son and daughter when they were growing up, and certainly not for my wife. I even dream of going back in time and being able to spend a whole day with them when we were all much younger.
This song makes me cry when I hear it, but thankfully I’ve been sober almost 14 years now, and my wife and kids know I’m there for them anytime they need me.
I may still have some regrets from the past, but I don’t wish to shut the door on it. My past is a wonderful reminder of who I was and who I have become. A good husband, a good father, and someone who is a better person than they were before.