It wells up inside of you. An emotional pain that’s hard to describe but easy to feel when someone you tried to help is suddenly gone. Especially when it was a special person who was easy to love.
You go from feeling shocked and sad to just feeling deep sadness. The question changes from “Why?” To. “Could I have done more to help?” You cry. You get angry. You talk to someone about how you’re feeling—then you cry some more. But nothing takes the deep sadness away.
You know nothing can change what happened. More questions arise. You ask yourself. “What could I have done differently?” “What could I have said differently?” More feelings of anger emerge. And then you just feel numb.
You look at pictures of this wonderful person. You read how so many other people are feeling, and then it wells up inside of you.
An emotional pain that’s hard to describe but easy to feel.
Not because you tried to help this person. But because like so many others, you’re simply mourning the loss of a special person who was easy love.